In July of 2008 the unimaginable happened to me. My husband passed away at age 40. I was now a single mom of 6 kids. This was NOT what I had expected from life. I thought death happened to other people?! I had so many phone calls and caring people stop by my home the first few weeks and I was emotionally drained. No, completely exhausted! I didn’t know what to do. My niece suggested I create a blog to share what was going on in my life– this way people could read my blog and I could save my energy. Instead of returning phone calls, I could give my kids the time and love they desperately needed. So I started blogging every Monday. I really enjoyed writing my feelings and found it healing.
After 6 weeks of his passing, I didn’t know up from down. 6 months later I guessed and was wrong- nope, still upside down! But a miracle happened at the end of the year. Two of my daughters were in class at school with kids from a family that had lost their mom in May. All four kids came up with a brilliant idea and decided we should get together as families because we were going through the same thing. I thought it sounded fun, so we met over the New Year’s weekend. It was awesome! We went swimming, to the movies, ate and talked a lot. This was so refreshing. We loved it because we finally found people who understood what we were going through! We all became best friends and hung out a lot. If there is such a thing as “family dating”, we did it- all 11 of us for months. Matt and I got closer and our friendship turned to love.
In June we were on one of our many family trips together and it felt like all my dreams were coming true. Matt took me to walk on the beach and asked me to marry him. My miracle- I married my best friend on 090909.
LOOK FOR THE GOOD!
I am grateful for life-changing, profound experiences of loss, love, and light. xoxo, Marcie
** You can read my earlier blog going week by week after my husband died here ___