How do I get through Valentine’s Day? You have to know this LOVE Day is a trigger for many people who have lost a spouse. The first few years it’s really hard to get through the day. And then who knows, but maybe the 6th year somehow is bad- you never can quite guess this […]
When I was looking for a new dad to be in my children’s lives I had a long list of things I wanted for me and my kids. I didn’t ever think I could find a man who could fit this criteria, but was fine waiting until I did. I created a list so high […]
Isn’t it so true that sometimes we take things out on other people who don’t deserve them? Powerful! After going through tough times we are often hurt deep within. What is natural is that we protect ourselves and our hearts. We push back, get defensive, yell at someone, or what I do- retract from those […]
Since Mother’s Day is coming up, I was thinking about all the wonderful women who are a part of me and who I am so grateful for. Thank goodness we have set days in the year to think about special things in our life- otherwise, we may pass over some of our greatest blessings. There […]
When do I start dating again after loss? Everyone has A LOT to say about this when you start considering entering the dating scene again. Maybe more than any other thing! BUT nobody has lived your life, so I don’t think it’s their choice! Even if they have been your best friend throughout your whole […]
It took me quite a few years to change my perception of my life as a victim. I had felt safe in the pain of being a victim. People felt sorry for me. I didn’t have to do anything I didn’t want to do because I was the poor casualty. Nobody was going to change […]
Happy Father’s Day to the man who is everything to me. My Matt. He has put everything he has physically, emotionally, spiritually, financially, and mentally into our family. BUT being a stepfather can be a thankless job. This blending is really hard and we have found that no matter how hard we try, someone is […]
It took me a few years to be able to concentrate enough to read again. My son who was 17 gave me a book he read for school and said it was easy and I would love it. It was “Heaven is for Real.” He was right- I loved it. Then I realized my brain […]
Towards the end of the first year after Jay passed away it seemed so many people had enough of me or the situation and didn’t know what to do with me anymore. What happened to all of the people who said they would be here for me? The support slowly faded and away they went. […]
The heart is an amazing organ. It does have physical pain. When my husband died, my heart hurt. It felt like it was bleeding– physically painful. I would hold my hands over my heart and tell it, “It’s okay. Please hang in there!” Oh, it hurt so bad. I had heard that someone’s heart can […]
Something grabbed my attention last week when we were on an airplane. As always, right when we got in our seats, the flight attendant was giving out instructions on how to use the equipment in an emergency. I looked around to see that nobody was really paying attention. I’m surprised I was because I had […]
I have been through some things in life and needed some time to think through– like YEARS to process! I didn’t even realize until now that we created a homemade cocoon. A safe house. One that only the people who live here could be inside. Matt and I with our children- learning and growing. So […]
Over the past few years, I feel that I have had a bit of an Identity Crisis and I’m wondering– who am I? I used to say, “I am a wife, a mother to nine, a business owner, a member of a community, church, etc.” I love all these things in my life sooo much, […]
I turned on my old ipod this morning and out popped this song from years ago- Yesterday, by Leona Lewis. I listened to it a lot in 2008, when Jay, my husband, first passed away. It was a song I listened to over and over and cried. That kind of sounds like a dumb thing […]
