Nov 1, 2008
I made it through October! One big holiday down! I told my brother I was hanging in there with a big fat smile, whether I liked it or not. This is what I tell my kids to do, too.
This was a fun week. On Sunday I met with a member of our stake presidency. He was Jay’s favorite person on earth besides our family. He is the greatest person and I always leave feeling like I want to be better. He told me that he was at a football game and a player got hit really hard and obviously had a concussion and he was walking over to the sidelines like he had no idea where or who he was. President Ludwig yelled out through the crowd, “You’re in Salt Lake!” He told me that this is how I am. I have been hit hard and am still trying to figure out where I am. Later that day he came to our Sacrament Meeting and I held up a sign that said, “I am in Salt Lake!” He laughed. I have been reading Job in the Bible and I told my Stake President and Bishop that I do not like reading Job. One night I sat there and read the whole rest of it so I would be done! But it ends well. My favorite part was Job 42:12 “So the Lord blessed the latter end of Job more than his beginning.”
We had our extended FHE at Tami’s home. This is all of Jay’s siblings and their families and Jay’s parents, about 20 of us. We do this once a month. We had Cafe Rio then Rachelle, who is my eight-year-old, was in charge of family night. She planned it all by herself and it was so cute. She had the little girls sing a primary song, Natalie said the prayer and then Rachelle gave us a lesson on obeying our mom. Then she had us learn a Halloween song and we played Halloween Bingo. I loved it!
I met with a life coach this week and that was really great. It helped clear my mind.
Wednesday I had a hard morning and I went to the gym. I cried in class but luckily Tiffany and Rachel were there to hug me. I never know when I am going to fall apart- thanks for being there for me!! During class, I wanted so much to drop my weights or trade them in for lighter ones, but I won’t get stronger if I do that. I thought this is so much like my life right now! I really want to drop the weights, but I can’t and I won’t! I’m getting stronger!
That night I decided that I have all the power. I am in control. That feels so great!
The holidays are hard, but I love Halloween! It is the only day you can be somebody else! The morning was difficult but the evening was better. Thanks, Andersons for having us over for the night. I was thinking that I am really having great blessings through this tough time. We are getting to know our friends and family so much better. It is so fun! The kids each chose 20 treats from their trick-or-treat bag and I bought the rest of the candy from them and the girls bought a latch hook kit and Jeremy an iTunes card 🙂
I asked Melissa if she can quickly get dressed the other day and she said, “Ok, my love bug!” She is so cute. That reminded me when Jeremy was little he thought his name was ‘Hurry’ !! He also thought Natalie’s name was ‘Pretty’. That’s what we called her.
Everyone asks me when the hardest part of my day is. It’s morning. I wake up and realize I have to do this all again. All by myself.
One of the many dumb things I said this week: I was at the gym and saw my cute 77-year-old friend there and he was in his street clothes and I said, “Hey, Bruce, I’ve never seen you with your clothes on!” The lady behind the desk sure got a great laugh!
Did you know that a piece of cheesecake with no topping has 1000 calories and 100 grams of fat! Wow! That makes for a long ride on the bike the next day or just don’t eat it 🙂
DON’T DROP YOUR WEIGHTS !!